freedom in chains

05/11/2025

after 8 months unemployment i finally landed a job

interviewed at a vons a mile away from home, nice union job w benefits, got a call back within a couple hours w an offer. overall very nice relief from the cycle of driving out all dolled up and masking my ass off to get ghosted

feels surreal more than anything, finally returning to a workplace, soon ill be gettin enough to survive again

i think this is what i needed though. when i left my old job i was simultaneously very prideful and very ashamed. i left because my self worth was very tied to my job and my performance, and i wanted a job that would recognize my talent, my work, promote me, get me lots of money. but over the 8 months ive learned a lot. learned to have sympathy for the unemployed, learned to appreciate myself and life without tying it to work, learned to live more simply, eat simply, not consume so much, and hate capitalism a hell of a lot more. like i already had left wing tendencies but now im full on socialist. though the tensions ran high many-a-time, this was precisely what i needed, and ive been hit at what i thought was the absolute breaking point several times, and through those struggles i feel much wiser, happier and more confident in myself and my beliefs.

that being said im absolutely gonna buy a hell of a lot of cds too