we are so back !!

18/01/2026

proud to write after the self indulgent melodrama of the previous blog that i actually feel pretty good about myself and the future

now that ive been workin a couple months i finally paid all my shit off so the weight of the 8 month unemployment is finally off my shoulders. not only that but i actually have a plan for my financial future too outside of just thugging it out !!! i opened a vanguard account and dumped $200 into a few worldwide and US index funds and im thinkin of investing a good chunk of my bank at the end of every month further. fuckin hate vanguard for owning a third of the world and feeding into the system of inequality and global exploitation but hey i didnt ask to be born into it and i gotta live in it to resist it. i will celebrate my newfound investor capabilities by personally encouraging your favorite company (yes, YOU reading this) to adopt shitty anti consumer practices for my gain :)

enough about boring ass financials tho dont give a fuck about no money unless its useful for something. im finally en route to live out my computer nerd fantasies as i finally have the motivation and reason to actually get into computer shit: im gonna get into self hosting my own services. im talkin long term nas storage, messaging, streaming, blockers, routers, movers, shakers, workers. i was lookin for old computers to repo to get started but we had none lyin around and nobody in my family had any and in the pit of deep doom my sisters boyfriend finn came from left field with the major clutch as he actually had a random laptop ready for the trashing. shoutouts to finn my ass was almost cooked... wouldve had to BUY SHIT. but yeah now that i have a spare laptop to get hostin look forward to a XMPP chat server soon... we despywarin EVERYTHING now, no more discord, no more samsung, no more google drive, just me and my own damn data !!

i also got other plans in the near-far future, still wanna buy a synth or drumset and get into music, still LISTENING to new music, still wanna look into hrt, but for now i feel content knowin things are good now and i have actual plans to look forward to. even if the world still fuckin sucks rn dont get too complacent !!